[Pagan]

oh how i miss the sakuras!! (I grew up in an area that had a lot of Japanese - and sakuras all over the place).

Things are starting to get back to normal. It's sinking in that my little brother is gone and that my husband will never get to meet him in person. His death has also refueled an old family rift so it is getting interesting. He had next to nothing, so there is no estate to fight about. It's more a situation of people who haven't thought about him in years suddenly want to race back to see him and see my mom. Well, he isn't have any service, my mom has taken care of everything the way she feels he would want it, and she has asked for time to grieve without visitors. My other brother and his daughter don't seem to understand that. Sigh.. families. And no, we will not be flying back to the states for the same reasons. Maybe next year, but not right now. She needs her space.

Meanwhile, I have my porn empire to work on, and that helps me find my way through this fog.